Date

On Sunday I had to force Sam to just relax... this means no surfing, no working on cars, no surf videos, just relax! He hasn't been feeling too hot lately and has been working really really hard. He also didn't get off work on Sunday until 5am!!! yea it's as awful as it sounds... So we had a little date day and it was so great. It feels like we haven't had one of these days, where we just get to do whatever we want with one another, in so long. We went to the art store and bought a gift for Mason (who is not 5 years old...time flys) went to rite aid and joked about how ghetto it is. Then went and dropped off somethings I had for the animal shelter. This was really fun because we got to look at all the animals there and dream about what sort of dog we will get (when we can actually have one)

After all that we went to one of Sam's favorite places... the Capitola book store. It's tucked away just enough to make you feel like you are the only one who knows about it, even though it was very busy when we went. We sat and looked at books and magazines for a while. I read about organizing and about what the color of your pee tells you about your body. Sam read about surfing, of course. I forgot to mention we were here because we were waiting for our movie to start, Pirates of the Carribean! It was such a good movie if have not seen it yet you should it's worth all the hype. I might have liked it a lot more because I know Sam loves it and we got to smooch and cuddle in the back row of the movie theater. Then it was off to get some Italian food because after all that sitting you work up an appetite. More cuddling took place and then we finally went home and cuddled more and went to bed.

very special Sunday.

-M

World Wide Web



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 I found myself lurking the Internet , in search of marriage blogs. I was curious as to what the world wide web would have to offer. Sadly , but not surprisingly, the first things that came up were "help save my marriage," "support gay marriage," "divorce help!" It's such a sad thing to see BUT there is hope. There are a bunch of

really good blogs out there that encourage Christan couples and offer great resources. It might just be me but these blogs seems hard to get to or like they are trying to sale something. I just want to see some raw truth about a marriage that has Christ as it's center, not buy someones book.

(bear with me I'm going to get side tracked right now)

As I have said before in this blog I have found myself searching for a deeper relationship with God not only for me but for everyone around me. As most of you know I did the Joshua program at Hume Lake Christan Camps (http://www.humelake.org/) by far one of the best things God ever did for me. At that time in my life I was lost, except i didn't know it. Joshua did not wipe away all those feeling and hard times and Joshua left me with a lot of questions and not enough answers. I actually found myself being very very bitter after the program was done because of some of the staff and how some things played out. HOWEVER I did have the most amazing one on one time with my maker. I don't know if I've had that same kind of alone time since then. I also got one amazing husband out of the program as well.

(now I'm getting back on track...sort of)

So what do I plan to do with all these thoughts I have and all the lurking on the Internet? Well, I'm not quite sure yet to be honest. I did only think about these things a few moments ago....well actually I wasn't just thinking I could feel God urging me to be with him and in return my heart felt like it was going to explode because I love him so much and I gladly moved with urgency. SO what I think I would like to do is start a journal one that is private and can be kept close to me and Sam. This journal will be for us to write about our love, married life so far, our sex life, babies, struggles, friends, what God is doing and what we are doing for God. Are you confused? isn't that what this blog is all about? Yes! it is meant to be just that.... but as you can obviously see it has kind of turned into just me (which is great because I love it!) Sam is a bit more private than me and that's something I love about him, it keeps me from too many TMI situations. I think a journal where we can write as a couple and individually will be one giant step for us in the right direction and we can eventually share them with people who might be randomly lurking the Internet one day.
 I love blogging and will continue to do so, and will still share all my drama, love, marriage craziness, random thoughts, and ideas. But I would really like to look deeper in myself and see how I can be stronger, more loving, and an encouragement to other newly married woman. It's a bit sad when a newlywed searches the Internet for some marriage advice and all they get are signs of failed marriages. Pray for me and for understanding.

a million thoughts going on

-M

The newlywed 15

I don't know if "The Newlywed 15" is a real thing... (meaning you gain 15 pounds when you get married). However I do know that I have gained 4 pounds since getting married and my exercise routine has gone down the drain. Because I would much much much rather cuddle and spoon with my love then work out! Obviously! who wouldn't?

BUT I love working out it makes me feel good and it's such a good way to clear your mind. So I decided I am going to start with a goal (lose my 4 pounds of love weight) and slowly start up my workout routine again. Sam isn't the go work out type, which is fine, so if any one feels the urge like me to get fit... let me know!

Good riddance newlywed 15!

The Law

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. that how I feel right now. We got some troubling news yesterday and are definitely not prepared for it. It seems like it's just the wrong place and the wrong time, but I guess all bad news seems this way. This is really going to test Sam and I , the good thing is I know God is going to get us through this.

I am over joyed that when we're stressed or worried we turn to Jesus and pray because it's the only thing that makes us stop being CRAZY PEOPLE. Psalm 9: The Lord is a shelter for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble. Thank goodness!

Please be praying for us and for everyone involved. We need peace right now and to rest in the Lord.

(we are not dieing and no one is dead just to everyone knows)

Communication

Who says this is easy? 

I am thinking most people in a relationship will find that communicating is not initially easy. I have found with my own relationship that it has definitely not been easy. I do love learning how to communicate with Sam, however, I am still learning! There have been times where I am so confused i think to myself  "what did i just say wrong?" I usually find that it's not what I say but how I say it. You would think that a 21 year old would have learned by now not to be so sassy when she talks to the love of her life...whelp she hasn't...

There's a time when I NEED to hold my tongue and stop nagging.. but then there are times when I have to make life decisions and I have to say something or else life will pass us by. (These are the "harder" times if you haven't caught on) God is so good to me, he has walked me through ever single time that i have felt this way. And he has helped me be a better woman through it.
It's time to be a grown up and actually deal with my issues. I thought burying them or acting like I don't care about them was working... wrong again.... Forgiveness, repentance, truth are just a few things that will help this girl be a woman. Through these things, everyday, I learn how to love Sam more and learn that my problems were not created by him, so I shouldn't take them out on him. Even though he is amazing and will let me vent... and believe me I vent and then cry most of the time.

Today I meditate on this...

(Ephesians 4:26-32)

Love- M

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